" Save me . "
Pardon my grammar if I have cause I suck .
I'm literally crying cause I feel so helpless .
There is just too much commitment that needs to be done .
I have my studies to cope . ( Actually , all of us . )
I have problems sleeping cause I am so caught up with my own homework / tests .
And now , this ) :
I really wished that there
is a right and effective solution for these
problems that are arising .
I can't seem to stop them.
Let me start somewhere .
Hmm . .
First of all ,
I feel that I am not really taken seriously in
my Student Leader Board .
I mean like whoa ,
people hear this ,
sounds so " atas " right ?
But very few people actually knows
what the hell really goes on here .
Throughout this 3 - 4 years so far ,
we may seem fine with the issues that
surfaces once in awhile but I feel this time ,
all these unsolved issues are shooting back at us all at once now ,
right at this moment .
As for myself since Sec 2 ,
I know that my position now could be affected cause of my
late-coming issues in the past ( and even now , sometimes I'm still late : b ) .
My results are fine , I don 't see a problem with that .
Posts / ranks are all screwed up cause there is many people
I feel they deserve a higher post , didn 't get it .
Or rather , those who should not even get a post , gets a post .
I admit , I do feel angry about my own post but when I think about it ,
I think it ' s best to not think about it now since it has been already long decided .
I can 't change a thing , I had no say .
Let ' s just say I didn ' t give my seniors a good impression that
I can actually do well .
Indeed, I really regret this so much cause of this little " misconduct " issue ,
I was not taken as an option .
But of course ,
I was not really bothered about it as I told myself its alright .
I don 't need a " status / rank " to show my abilities .
Friends do sometimes laugh at my rank but i was okay with it .
And now ,
when we are going to graduate and step down from our posts ,
new people are taking over our Student Leader Board .
Yes I admit ,
I hate the new system , really .
But what if this could be a turning point for this Board ?
What if this shit really works after all ?
Why aren ' t we being mature and just move with changes ?
Why do we keep insisting we are right ?
Their methods may not be the best but I'm sure ,
there is something that they know , We don ' t .
I know we all hate that new principal taking over us , etc.
cause she brought over her own staffs from another school etc but
what if this shit really works ?
Everyone ' s views are different so why can ' t we keep an open mind and look
at things out of the box ?
And when we feel we have a better ideas , I ' m sure they will listen
if we approach them in a respectful manner .
I really want this Investiture to be well done . Be the best ever yet with a good corporations .
And our juniors ,
they are having issues but I feel if we seniors can
settle our own disputes first ,
then we can lead our juniors the right way .
Not taking sides but this it what I really think .
I just had a self - reflection about what happened today .
No pressure guys ( if you are reading this ) , remember :
WE AREN ' T PERFECT .
I ' m sure there is still something between this team that we are
still able to hold on to , our hearts want to hold on too .
Remember those wonderful crazy ideas and stuffs we did ?
We stayed by late in school to come together and put up a dance performance for our school ?
Those little inside jokes we made ?
Those Bali trip memories we made ?
Those NE Camps / Orientation camps we planned ?
How about those silly cheers we are all willing to do ?
This heartfelt memories had always had a place in my heart deep down .
I feel that this was yet the best team I was able to be part of though I was not
like the most " dua pai " person lah . I really had tons of fun .
So let just all put aside our differences for once and be stay strong?
At least don't disappoint Mr Ong who trained us as leader since we joined this Student Leader Board .
I could really tell he was like gonna cry ( or maybe it was just my imagination ) when we spoke to us today .
We are their last batch of " babies " before this will be taken over
by our new discipline teachers .
I really don 't want to see this fall apart . .
So let make the fun out of this crappy system alright ?
How will this be all great is largely from our mindset .
And all of this is just sharing how I feel .
This post is not shooting anyone , just about what is my view at this current situation now .
Lastly , I love you all ♥
