In this judemental society:
" When you call a girl pretty, she only remembers for like a minute.
But when you call her fat / ugly, she will remember for life. "
Sucks to be me I swear.
I meant like,
yes I do get criticism from people around me.
But when they reach to my limit,
that's it.
I freakin annoying k.
I hate it.
Call me fat / ugly for all I care but if you rub it too hard,
you ' re freaking hurting my feelings.
Then fine, let say it's karma for me then.
Sucks.
I have been freaking moody these few days.
Feel like cry so badly.
I'm really tired from school, friends and family.
really tired . .
I wanna give up but I can ' t.
I just need to keep on going.
Go Jessica ?
I really feel so fcuked up.
Even now when I'm blogging,
I feel like crying already.
Ah,
lets go back to my day today.
So school as usual,
woke up at around 6.15am
Feeling damn worn out.
Not enough sleep, always.
Had Chemistry,
Maths, History and Mother Tongue lesson today.
Oh ya,
Chem SAT too.
I only looked forward to History and Chemistry lessons today.
Chemistry lesson was like damn slack,
doing experiments and stuff.
History was all about just watching videos and learning more about Hitler ; )
After that I had to rush over to the Kitchen to have our
" Potluck " .
So basically, this day is where we
Student Leader find time to get together to either
Celebrate a occasion or to welcome Secondary 1 in our Student Leader board.
We celebrated Mr Ong, our DM Birthday.
Once again Happy Birthday Mr Ong! ; )
Had tons of fun : )
then I had to rush back to class for Social Studies extra remedial.
I swear I don't like my new SS Teacher's teaching.
So I had like an intensive 4 hours of SS lesson with 2 different teachers.
First 1 hour with my class SS Teacher was super slack.
I at the back of my school's Theaterette there joking, laughing away.
HAHHA.
Then the next 3 hour,
back to my favourtite SS teacher, Ms Goh!
Hehe, love her man.
Always giving her all for her students though we are ex-students
in her class now.
She gave a brief summary on Conflict of Causes and Concequences on Sri Lanka.
Finally understood something.
I have Social Studies CA2 on this coming Monday.
It's like a either do or die paper.
Sigh.
Hope I got enough time to complete 2 essay in like 40 mins?
AHHHH I'm bad at writing fast.
Still, thank you soo much Ms Goh!
After that,
went off to Novena, Square 2 to enquiry about my class-tee.
Hehe, I'm done with it and now I just need to get them to pay me ; )
Hope it will turn out as fine as last year's!
And had dinner at Burger King.
Went home after that.
On the way back on the MRT Train,
I saw this Old Man beside my group of friends.
My group of friends were like joking away then he looked at us and smiled.
Expectational, his smile reminded me of something.
He kanda reminded me of my Dad.
So when he smiled and he did looked at me,
I just smiled back hahas.
I swear his smile is really cute though he like all dressed old,
and carrying a small "Hot Wheel" bag pack.
I don't know.
He kanda almost made me cry.
My heart dies a little when I see a elderly.
He reminded me about these few things:
- My " Grandmother" -
She was the one who took care of me once in awhile when my parents where out to work and I need to be left at home when I was young.
That's why when I was P2 - P3, I was pretty independent in going home on my own. This made my parents at ease.
Just recently, she just passed on.
And since the Fasting Month is about to start for the Muslims, this is gonna be the first year having Hari Raya Puasa without her. I feel sad now when I think of her.
Though I was super mischievous when I was young when I was under her care, she still took care of me, took me like her own child. And I'm grateful to her, really.
I love you, God-Grandma. - My Dad -
I know he will not stay with me for a very long time. He may not even see my fruit of labour next time when I grow up.
My relationship with him is still bad and I don't know how to show love to him. I just really don't know how to make him happy. I just want to let him know that no matter what, I will still love him though I don't express my actions or words.
I will keep you close to my heart.
Perhaps this is why I feel emotional towards elderly I guess.
This makes sense hahas.
Shall just stop here, I got no mood to continue now.
