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Tuesday, April 5, 2016

#291 ; New Adventures

Hey yoooo-ssss readers!
(If you're even still keeping track of my posts of course)

I'm back to blogging (I reckon!) 
* inserts trumpets and horn sound *
* throws confetti *



Yass, I'm back b**ches!


Apparently my last post was like from 2013?
Wow, that's like 3 years of being inactive here. 

Yes, don't worry - many things has changed and improved in some areas of my live across this 3 years. But not all were good tho.

Hmm, let me try to do a little summary of what happened to me in this span of 3 years.
It's going to be quite a lengthy post tho, please stay with me!

There's no time to waste so..


LET'S GO!



So yes, limbu graduated from my dearest & most heartfelt secondary school - Peirce Sec!
- But in case you didn't hear, my school is going to merge with Bishan Park soon due to the low intake of students cause you know, population growth is declining in Singapore.
" OH HOT ISSUE! " literally.

My clique, most of us, successfully enrolled into Polytechnic to pursue our Diploma after getting our 'O' Level results. Although results wasn't that fantastic, I'm still extrememly sastisfied and happy.
In case you haven't noticed, I'm now a Full-Time student at Republic Polytechnic pursing my
Integrated Events Management with one my good friend, Wanling!

It's funny how back when we were like in Secondary 1 or 2, we both actually mentioned we wanted to study Events Management although few years past by, both of us had a little change of heart (She wanted to take Arts Management and for me, I was quite into Psychology or Mass Communication for a period of time) but look where we are now, doing the same diploma! 
- Talk about coincidence & fate! 

Now now, I know what you're thinking:
"What, RP? Isn't that school like the lousy polytechnic?"
HEY HEY HOLD YOUR BLOODY HORSES.


"Yes, keep it there."


For the record, I actually had that mindset too but apparently, RP is a freaking good polytechnic and I have no regrets being enrolled in this school.
All is well here in RP - Teachers, school environment, friends, etc.
The teaching style here really suits me well for my learning and all plus besides, the course I wanted (Events Management) is only offered in RP and SP so yeah, NO REGRETS! 

If I am given the option to choose again, I'll definitely choose RP so.. 
Nuff said.



Yassss, I'm done with my Year 1 in Poly!
Everything is going smoothly, I've made good friends here in Poly and I am fortunate to have good teachers that took my classes for the past 2 semesters.

Nonetheless, exams was always a scary period for me still.. YIKES!



I'm currently phasing to my Year 2 soon and to be honest, I'm equally scared and excited:

1. I'm afraid I can't cope with my Business Modules cause looking at my Year 1 Semester 2 results for Business Modules, it is definitely not my best performance.

2. Classmates that I'll have in my class - Though I'm glad I got a few close ones in the same class with me next Semester so I guess everything will be a-okay! 

3. Teachers - I really don't want to get a shitty teacher. From what I heard from my other friends, they got teachers who really can't teach well or either they are too new for the job and they did not understand the lessons. Oh please please, I want a good teacher!


Oh yes, March just passed and to be honest, it was the busiest month for me EVER in my life.



As you can see above, anything that has a black dot below the numbers, means I had things on that day.

I literally didn't have any breather for the entire march.

  • Had workshops
  • Had an overseas trip to Cambodia for 2 weeks
  • Had meetings every now and then for my school's Welcome Camp for the new freshman in RP, School of Hospitality (SOH)
I felt personally the overseas trip took up majority of the time but it was very fulfilling.



We were in Cambodia for 2 weeks with this group here, we were split into 2 teams:
  1.  Team 1 is tasked to do a brochure for the tourist visiting the school as the school is located within a tourist area where there were monastery, temple etc.;
    Build a shelter as a resting place for the tourists who visits the place
  2. Team 2 is tasked to improve marketing strategics for a pottery shop within Siem Reap, etc.
    (not too sure about what they were doing because different teams, haha) 


This is the shelter that my team (Team 1) has built, together with the carpenter.


Trust me, it's not easy. As most of us have no experience on how to build this, we just really took our hard effort to help construct this for them.
You have no idea what lies under that cement. It's not an easy thing.

We had to do digging, pounding, laying of bricks, etc. 








"All work but no play makes Jack a dull boy." 
True enough, other than working our physical and mental (drafting a map for the tourist) strength, we got the play football, Captain's Ball (we taught them) and Volleyball with the Secondary and Primary school kids there.











The people living in Cambodia has it tough,
like literally.











They have to
know everything
:
Gardening, farming, fixing, construction, etc. as their way of life.
















Of course, the hardest part was to say goodbye to them.
They left us little gifts and words tell us: "See you soon", told us they will miss us..
But little did they know, "See you soon" would never come probably..* heart wrenching *




"I pray that every single one of you, to grow up achieving that little dream of yours, doing something big in the future; have good health so you guys don't have to worry about medical fees & lastly,
lead a happy life."




After that, we flew back to homeland Singapore.
& that's when all my workload is back.
Planning for Welcome Camp because I'm the Program IC for my camp.

It was challenging as I didn't have much experience handling such trusted task but all was well, managed to pull up a good camp for everyone.

Thankful for my awesome program team <3 nbsp="" p="">
LOVE YOU ALL! 



Okay that is all for now.
I won't say much. I'll talk in details soon.





Just to sum all these up, it has been a fun and fulfilling 3 years.
People come and go but those who stuck through it all, I thank you for that.




For _ _ _ _,

I don't know if you'll read this but just wanted to let you know that you're forever still in my thoughts no matter how much the world has changed around us. Many times, I wanted to approach you and ask if are you alright right but then again I remember how you shut me off thus I thought that if I were to do that, I'm afraid I might trigger you and you'll be all sad again.


Heads up, I'm still here no matter what for you tho not physically. I didn't forget the promises I made to you - those aren't lies. I still care for you alright x 

Do leave me DM or whatsoever whenever you're ready to speak to me again alright. I'm here to listen to your problems, be your punching bag if you need one. 
I still care for you.


Please take good care of yourself alright. You're stronger than you think you are xoxo.





Till then :)


Psst, I'll update the layout and design of my blog soon, stay tuned!






Saturday, August 31, 2013

#290 ; Wake me up when September ends





"Assholes."





Finally posting up something on my blog, aye?
Sorry for the ultra long delay cause I'm always busy and my computer is
being a real problem for not connecting to my Internet.
haha oh well.
Birthday coming soon too, this coming Wed (4th Sep).
and it's the day of my Literature Paper 2 Prelim 3, fml.
Hope it goes well..

And I'm happy that my bestie is finally back from Indonesia.
Hope to meet her up soon :)

The past few months/weeks,
I feel that my life has changed.

In a way when I thought I had everything but
it all turns out to be a beautiful lie.
I was living in delusional.

Should I start from the beginning?

Actually, I don't even know where's the start.
I don't even know when it all started.
But when I did, I can't salvage it anymore.

Friendship problems, lol whutt.
She used to be my priority.
I don't know if she knew but yes, she was.
Things like when I first won a pair of concert tickets,
I thought of bringing her along cause I know she hasn't been to any concert before.
So are you telling me now that all those laughter and smile were fake?

Wow.






But come again, 
the problem could be myself, I acknowledge that but whatever it's going now,
I really cannot comprehend.



You have became the reason behind my fake smiles and the reason why I hate school.


How about those days when you yourself prioritize your CCA and SL?
Did we give up on you?
NO.

Now that clique that I used to love has become the core of hatred in class.
Everyone hates them now, lol.
Ironic eh.



Hypocrites.


In the past, we always gossip about others but now?
You have became closer to that person you badmouthed at.

I hope to that person, you'll realised that that person who is your bestie now,
isn't who you really want to be with.
You're just a replacement.

And if I ever pop you this question: 
"So can you guarantee that your current friends now really treat you and like you as friend 100%?"
If you didn't hesitate, you're lying.




Ha ha ha, I'm just watching the world burn.


But this on another hand, 
I think I'm losing my good friend soon cause she found good friends
who could make her laugh more, in another word, entertain her more than I do.
Even if she didn't realised that, she is that kind of person.

She'll join someone else if she finds that funny and entertaining.
But though she may act this way, I know deep in her heart, she still remembers me.
Tbh, I'm a little annoyed cause I feel that I'm used.
But in any case, I don't want to lose her cause after all, we went through a lot too.

After my separation from that clique,
I joined, to what my class thinks, the outcasts.

Actually those outcast see things in different perspectives.
And I respect them cause they are stronger than us.

They had to withstand social issues and studies whereas, 
everyone seem to have a great social status.


I really respect them.


And I got to know someone even more after I left them.
They were different that what I thought they were in past.
Though I know, i'm being judged cause I join them but
whatever, judge all you can.




I don't need your opinion to live my life.



I kind of lost everything that I used to have but now,
I'm grateful cause this also showed me that my
Brothers and Sisters in Church has really gave me strong support.

Idiot me, why was I a backslider? 
But now, I want to contribute as much as I can.

Picking up guitar skills too and now I just need to get myself a guitar so I can practise!

After all these, I'll be lying if I say I don't hate them but
I'm grateful this event happen actually.

My luck changed for the better.

I won a iPad mini, Body Shop Hamper, loads more of concert tickets and met 
a really great concert friend name Coral.
She too been through even more shit in school but i'm glad we could relate to each other :)
Hopefully same goes to my academics of course, I want to do the very best I can.



My physics teacher even gave me a Hillsong album as an encouragement to do well for
the upcoming national examinations.
My Chinese teacher told me a really deep saying, I even felt like tearing when she said it
but the moment i saw those "friends" who just walked into class, I just held back my tears.





And hopefully, let my N level examination results outshine the rest :)

Jiayous, Jessica! 





To Myya,

Please stay strong with me.
No more cutting, no more worries as I'm here with you.
My biggest wish for you is that you'll be able to come church with me, go for this year's church camp.
Study hard and I love you as you understood me.
Thank you xoxo

Monday, June 24, 2013

#289 ; Better turn



" Wished I was prettier."




Yes sorry for not blogging like for zillion of years,
I'M SORRY ) :

And yes, something awesome happened to me today.
This morning when I woke up,
I switched on my wifi and notifications start popping out.
And I this was one of my notification :




I screenshot the convo to my friend.
WHOA DAMN HAPPY AHAHHAHA

I feel damn blessed this year.
Previously, It was this.



That was Social Star Concert.

AND NOW YOUTUBE UNDER THE STARS, YOUTUBE SENSATION ♥
Super duper lucky,
and Praise the Lord!



@ Wanling's house before we set off


On our way to the venue
Could not resist not taking this picturesque view.



And the night has finally started.


FIRST ACT


BLUSH


5 members includes :
Philippines, India, Hong Kong, Japen and South Korea!


Dayyyummm.


That's right, CARLY RAE JEPSON ♥


PSY really knows how to rock the stage


Cee Lo Green!

" I'm going crazy ~ "



My loves ♥


With daa friendly crowd!


SOCIAL STAR CONCERT DAY 1 SUCCESS 






I should have uploaded this like zillions of months ago but very lazy ; )
And its on my Instagtram anyway, come follow me! 

Really loving forward to YouTube Under the Stars : YouTube Sensation.
Thinking to being Deepa over with me since she just came back from Aussie!
It's be awesome and we are both fans of Tanner Patrick,
sounds like a sweeeet plan to me * grins *

And I'm all prepared to follow Tanner Patrick all over SG LOL.
I sound creepy, eh? 
I need to have a photo with him omg I need a photo > :

I borrowed Polaroid cam from my cg leader and I'm so pumped up now.

Wait for me Tanner Patrick, I'll see in a few days time  ♥♥♥






Saturday, June 1, 2013

#288 ; Imperfect me, sorry.




"Why why why ."




This week is pretty screwed up for me.
Been really having too much over-thinking now.

I keep thinking of the worst situations,
just everything negative.

I'm beginning to doubt people,
bring myself to think that they hate me, or just want to pull me down.

Who real now?

I don't know.




I don't know what's scarier now . .

Knowing that there's no one by your side 
or
losing your mind






Maybe, some were right.
I should not even talked to that fb group.

But at first, they were all so caught up with their new friends 
before i even went that group.
I felt super "extra".

If not now I won't be dealing this shit.
What to do?

I really care about them but I mean nothing to them.
I want to change myself but how to please them?

What is wrong with you Jess?
Seriously, why you such an asshole?


Even if I ever disappear from here, no one cares, yeah?


Crying for the past few nights,
just blaming myself for not cherishing what was in front of me the whole time.


To add on,
I think i have said before but yes,
I believe my Dad is leaving me soon, to a far far away place.

Okay, just gonna wait and see who gives a shit about me.
It's really depressing now for me.
I don't know what to do.

I feel freakin stupid.



I hate secondary school life, everything.

Everything is so fake to me.
Now I know who is being true to me, only a few.

No wonder why people choose to be a loner instead.
They know they'll get hurt if they cared to much.

I wonder to them, if they knew people hated them too,
how would they react?
Would they react like how i would or just ignore?
Well at these times,
i would say ignorance is a bliss.

This holiday "break" is a perfect time for me to really take a break
from these faces and face my own reality world.
Deal with myself, improve on myself.

What else can I do now?
All i can do now is just reflect and change.
All along, I thought being that way would be the best way to make people laugh
but perhaps its too overboard? 
People found it offensive.

I really want to make people be happy around me,
thats all I'll ever ask for.

Sorry if you were the one that I have offended you.
Don't worry, karma is already here for me.
Be happy and laugh at me okay?



God, I want to grace this chance to be even closer to you now.
You're the only one that I care now.
God, help me please.
They are those people that i really cherish a lot, but now because i hurt them, 
I lost them.

Wednesday, May 1, 2013

#287 ; Mayday



Will it ever get better?
Will this month be better?







" Best thing that ever happened to me? "
It was you but too over whelming ..





Its really such a long time since I last posted something
up on my blog.

Oh lazy me ; D

Anyway first of all,
I want to talk about my Student Leader Investiture
on 23 Apr 2013 , last Tuesday.

It turned out pretty well I guessed.
Finally some clear blue sky after a stormy weather.

We totally spammed like tons of polariod photos
and by the time we got out to take refreshment,
our juniors only left us with noodles and chicken.

I barely see 10 pieces of chicken left there I swear,
LOL.



Credits: Our alumni senior! ◕ ‿◕






HAHA NICE SHOT AYE?
     ( spot me if you cannnn )
We re all looking super smart.
I really love my blazer.

hehe.



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YANDE-MAAAAA!


Looking lady-like
* Strike a pose *

The last Head Prefect for our PBSC board.
Trust me, You're the best Bryan!

Gentlemens
Thank you for making me laugh all the time
* inserts smiles *

My daughter, my bestie.
Love you hun , : *

Love your smile here ;)
Stay happy!

MAAA BEAUTIFUL DAUGHTERS
* muacks *

A great teacher, our (student leader) father.
Thank you Mr Ong for raising us up!
You'll be greatly missed.



Smile ladies!Love you guys omgomgomg.

Hey babe! 
hehe.

Our Student Leader '12 Bali Overseas Trip
I will never forget this trip, being part of this family was a priceless experience.
Love you guys, each and everyone of you.


Lovely day.




And that afternoon,
after our English Oral,
Azhar, Wanling and I headed out to Old School Delights for latee lunch!


Filled with random-ness and happiness.

I'm drinking!
Unglam-ness

DUCK FACE!
hehehe

BATMAN? HAHHAA






And home sweet home.












And to you if you're reading this :

I'm really sorry that I don't really like go out as often with you now,
been superb busy with school as exams are like around the corner.
( in fact it's in 1 day from now - FRIDAY )

There is such too much commitments for me now
that I have yet to complete it.

I'm really looking forward to our next meeting but it won't be soon though.
Please take care of yourself okay don't injure yourself.

As for now, I really need time and focus on my studies.
This year is extremely crucial for me.
" Make it or break it. "

And of course sorry if I have been seen to be like super moody.
I don't know why either ohgawd help ..


Anyways take care bytch ; )



I'm afraid.