#283 ; For a better tomorrow - 2013

"CAUSE BABY YOU'RE A FIREWORK,"

Time flies pretty fast eh,

don't you think so?

It's gonna be 2013 in a blink of an eye.

HAHHA yes,

You must be thinking, 

why the world ain't ending? * insert sad face * 

First of all,

Don't blame those mayans.

Come on, it's not really their fault.

And I believe none of those shit.

The world will eventually come to an end when God says so,

remember this.

This year,

wasn't very promising for me though.

Academics falling apart,

friendships falling apart,

relationship wise . . ?

I don't know about love.

Family? Somewhat alright but just not good enough.

I want a stronger bond with my family.

Like what they say,

Blood is thicker than water.

Hope and wishes for 2013 and beyond ?

1. Buck up on my academics - I must give my all for the next 2 years.

2. Stronger bond between my Mom and Dad.

3. Grow stronger in faith with Christ.

4. Have a cute relationship? Haha ; )

5. I want to be a support to the people around me - Making them smile makes my day.

And to this special girl somewhere,

if you are reading this - 

Believe in yourself kays? I really don't know how to comfort you, 

get you out of your depression but promise me, never think of suicide as your solution.

I know, you had a tough life.

Since you're born, you have been dealing with abuse, pain. And when you're out of home,

you feel that you're being outcast, leftout.

Since then, you're always being so insercure about yourself. 

I can tell you this like a thousand times: You're aren't ugly nor fat, you're just unique.

Let God be your reason why you should live.

I don't know what's happening on your love life cause that seems to be affecting you the most now 

but whatever babe, let that go.

If it's not for you, don't push it.

And just ignore the world and live yours. People around you may bring you down but

it's your life, fuck it.

And I just want to see you improving on your results cause that 

would help alot in your future. And, YOU'LL HAVE A FUTURE KAY.

In case you're thinking otherwise ; )

And HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABEEE! * throws hugs and kisses * 

And what really made my December 2012 

a little brighter was I got to meet these 2 awesome people

while I was working.

I don't know but I really felt happy with them.

Their beautiful names are Deepa and Nicholas.

Haha, yeah

It may mean nothing but it's been awhile since I really had

smiles on my day when I faced some friendship problems

for a period of time.

Though their time here in Singapore may not be long,

I really just want to cherish the time with them and

create even everlasting memories. 

And yeah, it may not mean anything but . .

Thank you for ending my 2012 with a better start to my 2013 ; )

Ahhh I'm already missing my friend back in Indonesia alreadyy!

She said she'll be back to Singapore for a visit by March next year,

hopefully she can make it .

Let 2013 be an awesome start for everyone.

Yes, including you, whoever you are, 

reading this blog post.

LET THE FLAMES IGNITE, BOOOOOM.

#282 ; Memories 12-12-12

"Holds no meaning for me."

How's your day going for 12-12-12?

I'm just being a # foreveralone girl spending her time 

today on work and gaming, HAHA.

Nah, I'm just kidding.

No seriously, I did went to work and game the whole day today..

Perhaps I'll just use this day, use this post to thank someone that 

I knew less than 3 years

but felt like it's been a long time.

This particular dude is going NS sooon!

HAHA finally, 

becoming a real man.

Somehow, I was kanda there to listen his bullshits

while he went through some tough relationship problems.

His breakups, etc.

I'm happy to say that he is really going stronger

now in a new relationship.

Last long ya, bytch! ; )

And recently we went out for a outing with him along with

Thaddeus, Hannah and Yutian.

Yup, with this few old good online mates.

HAHA.

Went for steamboat at Chinatown and stayed overnight

at Jon's place.

Had Mac breakfast in the morning and home sweet home.

YES OF COURSE,

which outing does not have any one NOT teasing me ) :

Those arseholes, LOL.

Had a blast that weekend.

Thank for everything.

Though you may not be a very very perfect person,

at least I did really found something in you that I can

have you as a trust-worthy friend.

Try to enjoy your enlistment, HAHA.I don't know what will happen in 2 years time but I'll haveyou in my memories.

THANK YOU SO MUCH,

Jonathan Lee.

#281 ; You

"My dreams."

Do me a favour :

Pause my music player, located top of my blog and play this video instead.

"I was always waiting for you

even though I couldn’t say it

I laughed

to softly cover

the insufficient days that passed

with just experiencing it

I fell through

from the fingertips

we were separated

and disappeared

good bye

to the point I’ll be able to forget you

I want to see a lovely dream

If I turn on this kind of beautiful light

you can’t cast your eyes down, right?

there are many things

I want to know more of

That isn’t the reason I disappeared

I’d just went back to my original place

I fell in love with another

person

I feel like I understand this

so I cried

Good bye

to the point I can forget you

there aren’t such as things as lovely dreams

No matter what kind of beautiful light I turn on,

I’ll be standing still in the front of a mirror

I don’t have any confidence

I’m sure everyone feels the same

I suddenly remembered

your side face

Forever

without forgetting you

I’ve started to search the continuation

of this dream

Scary things

won’t disappear

I’ve understood that

you can’t cast your eyes down, right?"

This song holds tons of meaning for me.

I know ahhh, it's a Japanese song

blah blah but it's cool alright!

That's all I have to say much.

I'll blog more soon next week.

Just another moody day.